Monday, February 21, 2011

Giving



So I am in the process of cleaning out the garage and getting rid of stuff..I felt God tell me awhile ago that I need to just give it all away. I started thinking that yeah no problem..I will give most of it away (note I said most) I told myself that I would sell the big things like the double stroller my cousin had given me and the baby swing and some other random things. Well I posted an ad on Craigslist.org yesterday and I have a lady coming over to look at the stroller..I said I was askign $30 which is nothing for a double stroller but I am really feeling led to just give it to her and surprise her when she gets here.

I mean really when you think about it what is a measly $30 compared to blessing someone with something that they really need? She has two children, 1 being autistic and she needs something to help him with his muscle spasms and what not. I know God will reward me in many different ways if I do this.

So she just came and when I told her she started to cry!! I feel soo good I could bless her. She is a Navy wife and was just going through an underway like I am and her husband is coming home today. She was telling me that this has been a very hard underway for her topping it off with finding out the new problems with her son not being able to stand and walk for very long.

I am so blessed to have been used by God to give her something she needed and something that will help her in her life. It's amazing how he does that. I just can;t even put down in words how I feel at this moment. I encourage everyone to try and bless someone in some way today. Whether it be with money or items or just encouraging words..you never know how you can change someone's life. The littlest things can have the biggest impact on someone else.

Deuteronomy 15:10
Give generously to him and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to.

Deuteronomy 16:17
Every man shall give as he is able, according to the blessing of the LORD your God which He has given you.

Proverbs 22:9
He who is generous will be blessed, for he gives some of his food to the poor.

Proverbs 28:27

He who gives to the poor will never want, but he who shuts his eyes will have many curses.

Luke 3:11
And he would answer and say to them, “The man who has two tunics is to share with him who has none; and he who has food is to do likewise.”

Luke 6:38
Give, and it will be given to you. They will pour into your lap a good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over. For by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return.

2 Corinthians 9:6-8
Now this I say, he who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and he who sows bountifully will also reap bountifully. Each one must do just as he has purposed in his heart, not grudgingly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed.

2 Corinthians 9:10
Now He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness;

Thursday, February 17, 2011

The love of my life



You know that saying that says something about 'seeing and imperfect person perfectly'? Well tonight I realized what the truly means. I found this great poem online and when I read it it summed up everything I wanted to say to my husband I just couldn't find the words..

Perfection in my Eyes

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart, And for us to be
together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare, You're perfect and so is this
love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would, I love you more than
I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give, I'll do anything for you as
long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past, By the way you look
at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize, How perfect you are when
seen through my eyes.


I mean wow..isn't that beautiful?? I realized tonight that the things that aren't perfect about my husband are what makes him who he is and the man that I fell in love with 5 years ago. I have also accepted that he really feels the same way about me. In no way what so ever am I perfect and if you asked me a few days ago whether he loved me for me including all of my imperfections I probably wouldn't have been able to give you a straight answer. Tonight was an amazing night talking to him..yes we had a couple moments here and there but all in all I realized that we are everything to each other and that he does feel everything I feel.

I also realized that all this is becoming apparent to me because I have given our marriage up to God. I have let him lead me in the words I say to my husband and in my actions towards him. I pray every day that we have a long and happy life together. God brought us together for a reason and I know that the reason is to be together for a lifetime. I still remember the first night we met. I had never felt that way for anyone or anything. It was like the peace of God came over me and told me that he was the man I was supposed to marry and spend the rest of my life with. Some people don't believe in love at first sight but I do because it happened to me. God made it happen, it was his will that we meet after everything that had happened in our lives. It was He who brought us together and who put us in the right places at the right time.

We have had our struggles..the devil almost won in destroying my marriage but that wasn't what God wanted and whatever God wants He gets! Through lots or prayer and forgiveness I can boast that my marriage has never been better. I know now that it is because I have put God first. I know things won't always be easy and I will make many mistakes but I know that God will forgive me and so will my husband.

I encourage everyone to give their relationships up to God..whether it be your marriage or if you are dating or even your relationships with family and friends. Trust in the Lord and you will notice a change in your life. It is amazing how much I have noticed myself change and all for the good. I much more secure with myself and just everything. You know, the hardest part is trusting. I don't know why but we as human's just have such a hard time trusting anything. The defensive mechanism always seems to kick on when all we need is to just let go and leave it up to God.


 
 **Thanks to Jeni for making me the beautiful image at the top**

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy purely commercial holiday day!



Well its never meant a great deal to me.. Honest! My husband has known that from the beginning and why was I so disappointed when nothing happened today? I admit it, I hooked my doorbell back up and before that I left the front door open in case something showed up with something..But alas nothing, and it's better that way. I guess I was disappointed earlier even though I've been preaching "commercial holiday this..commercial holiday that" all day long and have for the past so many years. I guess no matter what your beliefs of the holiday you can't help but get caught up in the hype every now and then.

I was listening to the radio today in the car (Christian station of course) and they were talking about how some people love this holiday and some loathe it and call it "S.A.D - Single Awareness Day". They started going on about how none of us are really never not in a relationship just do to the fact of our relationship with God. Today gives you an extra excuse to spend time with Him. The same kind of excuse apparently other relationships need.

Like really why does your significant other need a day to show you how much they care about you. Like I would find it so much more special if my husband randomly surprised me with whatever on say June 6th. A day that he wasn't "obligated" to do something. We should want to tell our significant other everyday how much we care about them. Honestly I don't know where I'm going with this one today..guess I'm still alittle emotional..lol..

Let's make this challenge to surprise your love one in some way that shows them how much you care for them. It doesn't need to be candy or flowers or a stuffed bear. Remember that a note from the heart can mean so much more than any of those things, even diamonds!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

If music be the food of love, sing on, sing on...



Yesterday I turned on my pandora and because it was on the new computer (old slow one) it made me sign in again and when it did it automatically went to my Carrie Underwood station. Now I love Carrie Underwood don't get me wrong but it kind of took me aback because I had been doing the 30 day Christian music challenge I had heard on the radio since January and it just became an everyday norm. I felt like I couldn't change the station fast enough. I thought about it and I realized that listening to uplifting Christian music really has made such an impact on my life.

Growing up it was the only music I listened to, I didn't know anything else and as I grew up I started experiencing all these new "secular" groups and fell in love with all the different genres. See in my opinion I don't think Christian music has enough genres and if they do they aren't really played much on the radio. Like I realize there are Christian hip hop artists and hard rock ones but none of that seems to be played. I know that back in South Florida on 88.1 you could only listen to rock and heavy metal on the 'Under midnight' show which obviously only played after midnight on certain nights. I kind of don't think that is fair. I think throughout the day it should be a complete mix of different kinds of Christian music. Everything from classical to Rock to pop to praise and worship and so and and so forth.

Basically my point is that everyone should do a 30 day Christian Music challenge and see if it makes a difference in your life. I bet you won't even realize it has until you stop! :)

Saturday, February 12, 2011

"Don't wanna"

Have you ever felt like you just "don't wanna"? I'm feeling that way today..So much seemed to crash down around me yesterday (nothing major just tiny little things) and I just can't shake this "don't wanna" attitude. That old saying keeps popping in my head "When it rains, it pours". You know I really don't have the right to feel this way..Noone died..noone is sick..it's just the little things. Like my computer breaking and money problems and not being able to talk to my husband..it all just added up and created this little "don't wanna" monster. It isn't just about me either though..My mom has been struggling too..with so many things breaking in her house and so many health problems in the family..I just really worry about her.

You know what..it's times like these that really make you HATE the devil. All this is he fault..he is making me feel this way by attacking me. Boy is he doing a good job..My last blog was about being attacked and I think I pissed him off! That is actually a pretty good thing, I'm proud that I pissed of the devil!! I know what I need to do..I need to talk to God and ask for His help..but I can admit, I haven't done so. Its not that I don't want to talk to Him..I do, I just don't feel like making an effort right now which is really what the devil is counting on. Here is what I am going to do right now..(and everyone else should too, just to see what happens..)

I am going to pull out my bible and randomly open it and whatever pages it opens to I am going to read them. Maybe God will tell me something through them or maybe I will have just done the thing I can think of that requires the least effort but still {almost} doing what I know I need to do. Okay ready??

I opened my bible (and when I did it I just opened it and grabbed a chunk of pages because just iopening it up usually only lands you in Psalms or proverbs and I wanted to mix it up a bit) to pages 1254 and 1255(in my bible) which is in Jeremiah. Jeremiah 14[2nd half of]verse 17 at the top of the page to Jeremiah 15:15 on the bottom of the second page.

What I learned first off was that my bible contains many big words..secondly the Lord is not to be messed with. He can get pretty angry!!! Not sure what I was "supposed" to learn from it but what I can take out of it is that I have a very angry warrior on my side and he doesn't appreciate it when things don't go his way (in a matter of speaking). And that no matter how hard the devil tries to destory my life and the lives of my famnily and friends that my God can take him down without even breaking a sweat. Its funny..I already feel better..I can literally feel the "don't wanna"s dissapearing. THAT is how awesome my God is!!

"Our God is an Awesome God, He reigns from Heaven above. With wisdom, power and love, Our God is and Awesome God!"


Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Lessons learned

That's right..no  "Purple pills and ...." this time. This one is about dealing with life's challenges in a spiritual way.

 I was attacked many times today by the enemy. It challenged my relationship with God and with others. All you can do when you are under attack is to pray and talk to God. I struggled with that today. I went to my two best resources for all things and both of them reassured me that everything was fine. I was advised to pray and as much as I wanted to I just couldn't shake the awful feelings and in those moments the enemy won. Eventually I gave it up to God and in the end everything was fine. It definitely won't always be easy but as long as you trust God things will work out according to his plan. 

I don't want to say my beliefs were challenged today..more like broadened maybe. You see today it was brought up on more than one occasion about Spirits, Ghosts, you can say. I guess I've really never given it too much thought as a reality, just enjoyed watching it in movies and what not. But like I said it was brought to my attention today and I'm still a little iffy on what to think. One side says Demonic spirits, always evil..never for any good purpose. Another says good and bad, people visiting you for a particular reason. I want to say my beliefs on the whole situation is still up in the air but thinking about it right now, I need to believe what the word of God says..

1 John 4:1
"Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try [test] the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. (2) Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God: (3) And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world. (4) Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world. (5) They are of the world: therefore speak they of the world, and the world heareth them. (6) We are of God: he that knoweth God heareth us; he that is not of God heareth not us. Hereby know we the spirit of truth, and the spirit of error."

 I was told by one person today that you need to confront the Ghost and ask for them to reveal their true self and I guess that is what this scripture is saying. I still have to admit that I am torn, not torn, just confused about this topic. Maybe it's because I was never taught about it like most things and I don't really know how to go about learning more about it. Not really sure it is of huge interest to me or if it scares me. Maybe I just want to leave those kinds of things to everyone else..I can admit is some huge glowing dude with wings appeared to me and told me I was pregnant with the Son of God I'd think I was tripping and ate a bad mushroom or something (If I ate mushrooms lol). I can admit that I would probably have peed myself. I am not sure God had this sort of thing planned for me. You know, being able to see and speak to Demons or Angels. I have a feeling I am meant for other things. 

In the end I can admit that I completely believe that there are things in the world that we will come across that won't always be explained or fathomable, but that doesn't mean they aren't real. Experiencing something for yourself doesn't always give you the clarity you hope for but it does teach you something.  You may not always know what you've learned from a situation but trust that God confronted you with it for a reason. 

No challenges this time. Just be open to God and accept what plans he has for your life. 


"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Purple pills and Self Portraits

Today was a decent day. It was really rainy and gloomy out but it was nice just staying in and enjoying time with my boys. I rearranged my living room furniture to prepare for the arrival of the treadmill. It looks okay, still loving the "new" opened space. I was feeling pretty good about myself tonight and decided to take a few pictures and send them to my husband. My favorite of the evening...

Anyways I want to go straight to tonight's challenge..

I challenge anyone who reads this to pray for one of my dearest friends. Her family has been battling hardships due to legal issues and so far things have gone great. Unfortunately they have to go to court once again and hopefully for the last time. Its nothing major..it was about her husband and her getting full custody of her stepsons. Their mother needs Jesus, we will just leave it at that. I was blessed by her Facebook post tonight.."Once again I ask all of my friends and family to please keep us in prayer for Monday, once again we have another trial to go thru. We pray God's will be done in our situation and we give him all the praise and glory for everything, for if God be with you, who can be against you? :) "..She is a woman of God and deserves to have her family happy and whole. So please let us pray for them!

Friday, February 4, 2011

Purple Pills and Baby Blankets

Last night I was feeling crafty..I tried doing one project and that crashed and burned pretty fast so I attempted another and I think it came out good..only one other person agrees but hey..she's my BFF so of course she will agree! :)
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Today I made another one..Now I know I am not the best seamstress by far and yes I am impatient so maybe sewing projects are the best ones for me but I enjoy them and I really do enjoy the homemade look..I kinda messed up on this one a bit so it has a little bit more of a "homemade" look than I'd like but still I think the boys will enjoy it. (You know its kinda difficult getting a decent piece of fabric from a 0-3 size cloth. (That's my story and I'm sticking to it)

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Took my purple pills twice for the first time yesterday. I didn't feel any different..I've just been really emotional lately and I don't know why..it sucks..I feel like I'm pregnant again..BUT I'M 100% NOT!! So no worries there....I need to get out of this funk..I'm sure I'll feel better when my husband is home and we are back in eachother's arms. There's a life lesson for all of you who are not Military Wives or Girlfriends..or Women who's significant other is constantly away, you truly don't appreciate someone when they are gone. You even begin to miss their habits that annoy you when they are around. (Of course my husband doesn't have any, right hunnie? lol)

Today's Challenge...Stop whatever you are doing right now and PRAY. Doesn't have to be for a long time doesn't have to be about anything specific. Just take a moment right now and close your eyes and talk to God. He would really appreciate hearing from you today (He told me so).

I hope everyone has a safe and happy weekened..for those of us who are Stay at Home Mommies of younger, not in school, children the days of the week are allllllllll the same! :) So enjoy your same as every other day weekend! God Bless!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Purple Pills and $1.50 shirts

Yesterday was an eventful day (at least it seemed like it) I had an appointment and then a few errands to run. It was a decent day out..humid but at least the kids didn't have to be bundled up from head to toe..

Kamden weighs 27 lbs 6 oz and is 32 inches tall and I was told he is "At a high risk for obesity". Like seriously?? lol It is so laughable, Kamden is in no way fat at all..I was basically told to starve him and that is most certainly not going to happen. My husband and I know what is best for our children. Its just so ironic because when he was a baby we were always being told that he was too tiny and needed to gain weight and now all of a sudden he is too big and blah blah blah...\

Anyways..I have just recently cleaned out my closet and rid it of all of my maternity clothes and noticed how bare my wardrobe really is. I guess being pregnant back to back and wearing maternity clothes for the passed two years kinda takes over everything else. Yes I do still have some clothes from pre-pregnancy but that was back when I was working and all of my clothes are workish clothes. Well long story short I went looking for some good deals at a thrift store. I did get some great deals, apparently all of the clothes were half off yesterday (yay) but I have to say the best find was a Michael Kors silk shirt. Brand new with the tag from Macy's still on it. Why would I say it was such a good find..well because the original price of the shirt was $89.50 and yepp you guessed it I paid a whopping $1.50 for it! I hate when people wrinkle their noses at  shopping at thrift stores..not EVERYTHING is gross and used and dirty..I have gotten awesome buys from there (and I only buy name brand clothes in awesome condition). If you are too good to shop at a thrift store than that just means more for me! :) lol

Let's see...how should we challenge ourselves today..hmm..How about taking just 5 min and talking to God..we all have busy lives and can easily get caught up in it and forget to spend time with Him. You don't have to talk out loud, I don't, I just sit and think to Him because He knows what I'm saying :)

Did anyone do the last challenge? I did..I thought I was called to ask someone and then I felt led to ask someone else. It led to a very nice conversation..I may have played it a little safe asking someone I know who is a  Christian but I felt like God wanted me to so I did.

**Ahh I was looking for a bible verse to post online and the Mormons popped up again, I think they are following me lol**

"Shema Yisrael Adonai Eloheinu Adonai Echad."
"Hear, O Israel: the Lord our God is one Lord"
Deuteronomy 6:4




Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Purple pills and hapiness

Today was a good day..started off rough with Kamden being a complete brat for some reason but it ended up getting better.

I got some emails from Jason which was really nice..I miss him so much, you'd think I'd be used to this by now, especially since it isn't for very long. He is working his ass off right now. It can be nice having a husband that is so awesome that he is in such high demand but it can also suck butt..like now..

Our camera and everything came in today which was really exciting because I wasn't expecting the camera for a few days still but ( :p to you Jason I told you so! lol) it all came in together! I didn't have much time today to really test it out but I took a few pictures.




I also got to order my treadmill today which is awesome..Jason gave me the 'go ahead' and it should be here in about 2 weeks..hard part is trying to put it together!

How did everyone do with their challenge from yesterday? I actually feel better..I haven't thought once about the people that I was hating and they have been on my mind recently so that is a major thing. It feels like a huge burden has been lifted off of me, I'm sure that had a part in why today was so wonderful. See God is good and rewards you when you follow him and do what he says! :)

Now about the purple pills..I'm struggling to eat 5 meals a day..1. I don't have much of an appetite but 2. I don't really get a chance. Chasing after a 17 month old and keeping a 5 month old happy takes up a lot of time..lol..

Tomorrow is going to be a little bit eventful..I have an appointment at 1:30 and then I need to go to the NEX because (thanks to facebook) I can finally take back the dumb keyboard and mouse set that stopped working out of nowhere..anywho this is getting boring..lol

Onto the challenge..I challenge you to ask someone how you can pray for them today..it can be anyone, a friend, a family member..a stranger in a store..see how they respond and how it affects them. I know when I was asked that from a complete stranger it completely changed my day if not my life. It made me realize that there are bigger things than money issues and material items. I still think about my first time in the C28 store at the Lynhaven mall and how good I felt leaving after being asked how someone can pray for me and then praying for me right then and there! God is so amazing!! If you do it please let me know..I would love to know what happens.. :)